in full disclosure, i’m sitting here with a glass of wine and just sort of staring at my computer.
i’ve checked Facebook three times. please stop inviting me to play candy crush. i don’t know what it is, and i don’t want to play with you. it just is what it is.
this doesn’t happen very often. usually i know everything i want to tell you. which is pretty much everything. i don’t even have a recipe for you today. not even a subject except “enter title here”. i know, i don’t know what you’re doing here either.
usually this would be a cheersing to post, but i feel like this needs to be valentine’s day post. and it hasn’t been a very valentine’s day week.
ok, four times.
i know what you’re thinking and i’m not going to do it. i’m not going to go taylor swift and word vomit all over what that sentence means. i won’t. i won’t. i probably will – but trying is half of it, right? isn’t that what someone out there once upon a time said? i think so. it was in that book less scary than sleeping beauty but not as unrealistic as cinderella. i’m pretty sure i made it up and wrote it.
and i’m not going to tell you how much i hate valentine’s day, even if i do. (i totally do). because i get it. it makes some people feel really loved and special, if only for a little while. for others, it reminds them how lucky they are to have some people in their lives. for even others, it gives them a day to bask in all of it. and if i know one thing – i know the world needs more of that. so you can have your red roses and your steak dinner and i will raise a toast to you.
here’s where i am today. on this day.
i want you to know something.
you are unique, needed and irreplaceable – you have a place in this world that no one can ever take. you’re a light in someone’s darkness. you are a thing of beauty. you don’t have to convince anyone you’re anything. you already are. you’re good enough. you’re smart enough. and you’re definitely not alone.
you’re surrounded. but you have to stop turning away and look right at them. you have to decide what you want. do you want scrambled eggs or poached eggs?
there is reason to celebrate the here and the now. and there is a reason to celebrate that you won’ be in this same place forever.
grab ahold of that.
that is where i’m at this valentine’s day. just grateful. and lucky. because i have a whole lot of happy and a whole lot of love. and i have this place. i have you who is sitting here reading this and i have absolutely no idea what i’ve been trying to say.
but – i’m trying. it’s like the book said.
and yes, that was more for me than you. but at least, i didn’t go all taylor swift on you.
happy valentine’s day you little love muffins, here are some of my favorite things